this month: may

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It's come into our lives like a freight train and appears to be making quite a home for itself in Dunedin. I'm writing this as I laze on the couch at Tim's flat, directly under the heat pump, with big fluffy socks on, snuggled up in a massive 'CANADA' hoodie from our travels last year and a hot chocolate by my side. The condensation is drowning the windows -- a subtle hint at the chilly temperature outside. We are supposed to be hit with a 'winter blast' at 6pm (in forty-five minutes) that's going to bring snow right down to sea level. Fingers crossed for a snow day tomorrow so that we haven't suffered through all this icy weather for nothing.

It's been a long time since I've been on this little blog. I find it really hard to balance study, work, family, friends, Timothy, and leisure... and sadly this space has fallen off the radar these last couple of weeks. Normally I find that winter has a way of naturally slowing down the pace of things, but this year that hasn't been the case for me. Finding time for calm amongst the rush is a constant challenge.

Over the last week I've made a big decision about my study. I've been really struggling with motivation this semester with my current uni course, finding it hard to visualise a point to it all and in turn, letting my study slip. A lot of factors have come into the equation and a lot of different options have been thrown around.. Do I soldier on and just get it done? Figure out the rest later? Should I just quit, and pursue photography? Is it just a big waste of money? These thoughts have been swimming through my mind for a while now but I've been scared to face up to the answers -- instead, leaving them to continue swimming around in head and cause a fair amount of stress and mental energy.

I've made the choice to change my degree next semester. I'm going to be changing my major to Communications. It's what I started uni doing, but left it in the dust when I moved to Polytech to do my photography diploma. It's going to be a challenge, especially since I'm going to be jumping straight into final level papers in a department that I haven't been in for 3 years. It's probably going to be a lot harder than what I've been doing so far this year, but we both feel like it's the right choice. We've been looking (dreaming) at jobs in the UK and all the jobs that catch my eye are ones that require a media/communications degree. With plans to move/travel the UK in July next year, it seems a sensible decision to do the hard yards now, and hope that it will help me out in the long run.

It's a huge leap of faith. But as always, Tim is supporting me with it through and through.

It's ridiculous how much of a blessing he is to me. He loves me when I'm happy, he loves me when I'm moody -- he loves me no matter the season, no matter the circumstance. I'm the first to admit that I can be a handful sometimes (like when I get irrationally annoyed at him when he forgets to ask for my hot chocolate without marshmellows and instead I get one with marshmellows.. I know it's not a big deal really, I'm just so picky hah), yet he is always there through thick and thin, braving all the floods with me and building me whatever I need to keep afloat.

This life with him is so much fun. It's not always smooth sailing, but it is an adventure none the less.

Tim, if you're reading this (probably when you're at work and supposed to be working! YES, I SEE YOU) thanks for being the best best friend that I could ever ask for. Your support and love and care doesn't go unnoticed. You da bomb dot com. Love you x

Your Love is Strong

Heavenly Father, You always amaze me
Let Your kingdom come in my world and in my life
Give me the food I need
To live through today

And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wrong me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place

I walk to the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why should I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is, Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is strong
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is strong

Jon Foreman - Your Love is Strong

These last couple of weeks have been so, so exciting. This year, whilst stressful and overwhelming and confusing and difficult has also been so, so exciting. So fulfilling. Six of our closest friends have got engaged in the last two and a half months. Three couples who we have lived life with over the past 3 years of our own relationship have taken the next step in their own. It's been incredible to be a part of and beautiful to witness. I've been asked to be a bridesmaid for one of my best girls, and Tim and I have been asked to photograph two others. This summer is going to be our best and busiest yet. In total we have 5 weddings that we are either photographing, attending, or a part of. EPIC.

Love is awesome.
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